TimTan

I woke up today feeling great. Better than I have felt in a long time. It seemed like today was finally going to be my day. I was going to possibly be told that I have a job, my ex left me a message which let me know that I was on her mind, I had an event to go to and was going to be surround by friends, and everything was just looking up.

Then I found out that I will not know if I have the job for another 2 days, my energy level dropped, I figured out that I didn't have enough money for gas to attend the event tonight, and I started to feel so lonely that I began to think about how much I missed my Reese.

I would give anything in the world just to have her sitting next me to. I've figured out that if you love someone you should do anything to make them happy, and that includes sacrificing relationships with other people,  if you feel that person is the one. Some people think that it's stupid to stop talking to friends inorder to make someone happy; but if you don't do the things to make them happy and comfortable then they will leave and they definitley won't be the one.

I hurt her because I didn't make her feel as though she was more important than anyone else in my life. At the time, I felt like I had to keep people around incase we broke up and I needed someone, but when she left my heart knew that she was the only person that I truly needed. No one cared for me or loved me as much as she did and because I hurt her, all of that was taken away from me.

They say time heals all wounds, but deep wounds always leave a scare. They can never be forgotten. While I feel as though she still loves and cares about me. I know things will never be the same. It hurts to know that I let the best thing that has ever happend to me slip through my fingers, especially when she gripped onto my hands so hard for all of that time because she didn't want to let me go.

To anyone who reads this, just know that it is up to you how far a relationship goes. If you feel like that person is the one. Show them EVERYDAY, that you will do anything to keep them happy. If you feel like the love is fading or the relationship has stalled, try ten times hard to make progress, because once that person leaves the only thing that will stall is your happiness.

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